love me never

Hey everyone-i got a new name in case anyone cares..its 'heartslullaby' and ill be usin that one from now on

Hey ya'll...im gonna be changin my name on here soon but ill post it when i do. No practice yesterday, major plus! But im startin to feel hella outta shape now since we havent practiced since last tuesday..oh well me and dani ran in the rain yesterday instead lol. I'll miss u lyssa and aly at the game this weekend! We're gonna lose without you guys! O wait...we lose newayz lol

I love the rain!!
Yay!! Summer is finally gone and rain is here!! I HATE summer! and...cuz of the rain...no soccer practice! score...pretty good day today. Certain mormans crack me up, but piss me off at the same time. And I didnt know Mormans could be so racist! lol

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Toby keith

i think im fallin...
I'm lettin myself go again. Hopefully I won't get hurt again this time, but I'll risk it. I'm tired of bein miss-secluded and miss..wutever..the one without a bf lol.. He makes me happy and i could just spend all day everyday with him..might sound gay but wutever, its true. I don't know what to tell Brian now, though. No doubt he'll think im a bitch, but I don't care. We've only been "talkin" for like 2 weeks anywayz..lets compare that with someone I've had feelings for since 9th grade! yea, id say theres a bit of a difference there...so yea our little walk in the rain was awesome-we stayed out for like 2 and a half hours, just talkin and goofin around.. the bad thing...it didnt rain again!!! Pissed Me Off!! ugh so anywayz.. we're "talking" about things tomorrow before we really commit to anything, I hope we can get over things from the past and just start all over, but it is really hard when someone you really have feelings for breaks your heart. Oh well..its life i guess?? anywayz GO RED SOX YANKEES SUCK! hahahaha

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Ashlee simpson

Goin for a walk in the rain yay....

Current Mood: cheerful

Dont go see Ladder 49 if anyone u love is a firefighter...

Current Mood: worried

Last night was good..I found out that the Toby Keith tickets are going on sale this mornin and i hinted that to my mom since the concert is around my birthday..she didnt say no, so im assuming its a possibility that i might get them!? Last night was fun..i like just hangin out with him..and his house is so cool. He has like the prettiest view of Vacaville! im so jealous cuz the only things i can see from my backyard are my neighbors' shed and my other neighbors' shed..and a couple trees lol. Last nite I was thinkin that id probably be a little upset about not having a game today...but nope its good to just finally have a break! I think thats kinda what our team needs now anywayz. so....my day is lookin like this...chores in the mornin, then gonna go watch a little bit of my brother's soccer game, then off to see Ladder 49, then babysit at 5 till 2 in the morning! the plus..it might rain tomorrow! score! lol im a dork but o well...

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: my brother singin to spongebob

My icon kicks ass!! Disagree? tell me and ill be happy to argue with you. Thanks so much aly for the card! I love you so much-ur always there for me and im always here for you!! Call me this weekend if u ever get bored cuz i dont have anything to do!?

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: LONESTAR

COKE MAN!! lol econ is gonna be fun.....Apparently there is a "queer jounal" according to mormons, Donovan kent and spencer bertoch. anywayz..thats mormons for ya!! They said theyre gonna be out in the browns valley area this weekend on bikes passig out bibles so lock ur doors! Get in ur cars n aim!!

SA-FUEGO!
Sapphy! look at my new icon! is beautiful lol

I pretty much hate everything right now..except for my friends, and there's only a few of them who are really there for me. I just wanna go sit alone somewhere and cry for DAYS. That sounds good... I've tried thinkin about things...either way things could go right now. And im not sure now if i want either way. I thought i wanted a boyfriend, but guys are honestly just a big disappointment and i never seem to be good enough for any of them anyways, so why try? Maybe ill never get married and all that crap like i want to...wutever

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: my dad watchin baseball

FRIDAY!!!
Today was pretty long and boring for a friday...actaully not boring, not after lunch anyways. You think someone you've been friends with since kindergarten wouldnt throw ur friendship away because of something as stupid as not going to lunch together...and then..no being cussed out wasn't enough, but then going to my locker to find that she had taken the locker n left my stuff to get stolen just topped it all off! ughh why are ppl such drama queens? Don't laugh at that one-im not that bad of a hypocrit! But tonite..im pretty excited for..i dont really know why either? I dont really know if its a date or a friend thing? If someone picks u up, takes you to dinner, then to a movie is that a date? lol I DONT KNOW! But apparently everyone else in the senior class at vaca high seems to know about it! anywayz...soccer game tomorrow when it might rain..i hope it does!!! And me and chrissy( my sis) got picked for the then and now picture at school-its actually pretty good-we were like 4 and 5 and wearing my dads firefighter stuff so im hecka psyched to take the pic!! yay its friday!!

Current Mood: and a lil mad....
Current Music: JIMMY wayne biz-natch!

I got to go wakeboarding today after skool! yay me! things are lookin better now...goin out with a good guy on friday nite...think itll be fun!! And soccer game on saturday woo-hoo!! Hey, and maybe, just maybe, since im on a roll here, i can pass my econ and english tests tomorrow! lol....

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: toby keith-WHISKEY GIRL!!

its only tuesday......this week blows already too many tests and other crap to worry about. Too much stress and too much feelin like shyt. i think i should stop complainin but i dont really wanna. Maybe tonite practice will make me feel better, sounds weird but soccer almost always gets me in a better mood. Hopefully tonite, we wont all bitch at each other but maybe just Talk about how things havent been fair and how we should fix them? Doubt thatll happen tho-wutever... Only one month and two days till i get to see the NINERS on my BIRTHDAY!! the only good thing of the day...

Current Mood: stressed

I Woke up this morning With this feeling inside me that I can't explain like a weight that I've carried Been carried away, away But I know something is coming I don't know what it is But I know it's amazing, you save me My time is coming And I'll find my way out of this longest drought... It feels like today I know It feels like today I'm sure It's the one thing that's missin' The one thing I'm wishin' Life's sacred blessin' and then It feels like today Feels like today You treat life like a picture But it's not a moment thats frozen in time It's not gonna wait Til you make up your mind, at all So while this storm is breaking While there's light at the end of the tunnel Keep running towards it Releasing the pressure, that's my heartache Soon this dam will break And it feels like today I know, it feels like today, I'm sure It's the one thing that's missin' The one thing you're wishin' Life's sacred blessin' and then, It feels like today

OMG
Today..wow...and just more wow. I thought it was weird when one of my ex boyfriends was talkin to my sister, but now hes goin out with one of my good friends...ehh wutever ive finally realized that i am over him and i dont think he deserves, or ever will, any decent girl. a little harsh...maybe..but then again so is being stood up at winter ball....
Today was also kinda weird-i got a very long, seemingly genuine, apologetic letter from lets just say my *significant other*, id like to think. But he still has a girlfriend so who knows if anything will ever happen there?? I really hope so, but if not, then once again ive been played...nothing new to me!
Anywayz..soccer practice should be very interesting tomorrow nite. I know that IM gonna show up but who knows who else will!? I wonder how many girls will have to "work" or "do homework", or "go to the gym" and "be with their boyfriends"???????? and one more thing.......VOTE FOR BUSH!!!!!!

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Rascal Flatts-FEELS LIKE TODAY

i feel like crap
Man i feel awful! First I cant breathe at our game, then i feel hella dizzy, and now i just feel like crap! This sucks for a saturday nite! And that certain sumone was really nice today at the game...weird??? I wonder if we'll ever win a league game? Maybe if some girls on our team understood the concepts of "PASSING", "MIDFIELD" and TEAMWORK!!! YEA RITE THO! wutever n it REALLY pisses me off that ppl who didnt come to practice got to start over sumone who always does!! Doesnt make sense to me!?

Current Mood: drained
Current Music: lonestar

guys are REALLY gay!
Wow last nite was retarded. My nine months without a boyfriend has really showed me that you cant trust guys cuz all they do is lie and break ur heart! ugggh newayz but brit wick brought this guy for me to meet from dixon to the dance last nite-hes a cutie!! But wutever hes prolly like every other guy. And the dance was...kind weird. Like i really didnt expect "the reg" to come to the dance or even sit with me at the game.. i dunno??? But i do know that its really fucked up when you like a guy a lot and ur best friend hella flirts with him huh aly!?!?! But hopefully our game will be good today. Maybe since we got second in our tournament last weekend we might actually win today!?!?!?! lol....

Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: Keith Urban-youll think of me

**aly** love ur toby keith song but mine is better!!!!!!!

Don't my baby look good in them blue jeans?
Tight on the top with a belly button ring
A little tattoo somewhere in between
She only shows to me

Hey we're going out dancin' she's ready tonight
So damn good-lookin' boys it ain't even right
And when bar tender says for the lady
what's it gonna be?
I tell him man...

She ain't into wine and roses
Beer just makes her turn up her nose
And, she can't stand the thought of sippin' champagne
No Cuervo Gold Margaritas
Just ain't enough good burn in taquilla
She needs somethin' with a little more edge and a little more pain
She's my little whiskey Girl
She's my little whiskey Girl
My Ragged-on-the-edges girl
Ah, but I like 'em rough

sisters are hella gay
My sister is hella fuckin stupid. You know, when u go runnin at nite, you'd kinda expect your sister to stay by you, especially when u ask her to? Not my fuckin sister-there were three guys followin us and hittin on us and i told her to call my parents to get us (cuz we didnt have the car) cuz i felt uncomfortable havin three fuckin older guys followin us! That stupid bitch didnt and she left browns valley park without me, and who do u think pulls up next to me? Of course, those three guys, and of course, they start hittin on me. No i didnt get raped or kidnapped but those r how those stupid ass situations happen-when fuckin sisters dont use their fuckin heads. So if u kno my sister and ever see her at least call her a dumbass for bein hella gay and puttin me in that situation by myself, WITHOUT my cell phone or a vehicle.

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